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by Jai Mohan

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1.
i lost myself 03:31
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i lost myself he was walking in a wild dark place it got so dark he didn't see another human face i lost myself he was roaming 'round in sneakers and a cane i lost myself, with no one else only me myself and i remained the ache was dull in his feet and in the middle of his back the road was long and he didn't bring enough cash the road was long and he didn't have a water bottle packed and nobody offered him a drink and isn't that just sad? he missed our cats i lost myself he's somewhere in the middle of these woods after all i said he never learned to come back when he should i lost myself he's left me now forever and for good with no one else Mx. Misunderstood i lost my soul they say it's only gonna take him time to return he used to come around when i would find a clever story a pretty rhyme but he is gone i've lost my mind i lost myself i don't know what he's doing, or just where he's gone i'd like to hope that he's writing pretty songs he'll come back to me i hope that i'm not wrong he'll come back to me before long
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avalanche 01:16
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3.
beloved 04:11
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lie down with me patron of musicians lie down with me god of inspiration lie down with me guide of fate lie down with me god of plague sometimes i get lost sometimes i am lonely when i’m not alone but you, you are home lie down with me brilliant speaker lie down with me bright healer lie down with me great protector lie down with me lovely killer sometimes i am lost in darkness and i lose my sight but you, you are the light i have been on stages and subways and on my way i have been lost and i have searched this place for a friendly face and come up wanting but i find myself wanting you if you're my song i'll be your singer lie down with me pretty lover
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feathers & flame 03:33
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i fell asleep tangled in the web of Wyrd with ink on my hands and wine on my tongue i lay asleep a thousand years and when i woke i still was young psychedelic, ultraviolet wonder if i still can find it if i try to remember my place psychedelic, ultraviolet there was nothing quite like it i dreamed of feathers and flame i fell asleep tangled in the web of wyrd hail to the Norns who do it each night i offered them flowers, i offered them my fear they told me to look with my other sight psychedelic, ultraviolet and when i woke the sun was shining and i knew with certainty my own name psychedelic, ultraviolet there was nothing quite like it i dreamed of feathers and flame
5.
molecules 04:24
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i was formed from algae at the start i learned to grow a skeleton, i learned to grow a heart i was a mosquito on a plane i was somewhere else and in some other time and place i was just a virus in a vein i am everybody that you know i am the places that you never learned to go i am everything you are water in a jar when the atmosphere took over me i rose unformed unwhole out of the sea when i became the rivers and the storms the earth itself again would keep me warm eternity's my stage and i perform i am everybody that you know i am the places that you never learned to go i am everything you've been i am monsters and i'm men i was just the monster of a cave in the fields of lavender when you forgot my name i was once a river and an ocean and a lake i sang the words of orpheus and made the same mistake i was born in 1998 i was born in 1998 just some fuckin' cruel twist of fate i was born in 1998 i am everybody that you know i am the places that you never learned to go i am everything you've been human
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Saturn 04:02
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(turquoise, ultramarine gold and silver glittering the black and white that's in between Saturn and me) so, so, Saturn and i we get along fine me and my velvets and him wearing leather Saturn and me were something you'd see when all of my exes were fairweather rings, runes, jewelry ice, fire, mystery of everything that i believe Saturn and me so i wake up in bed with Space in my head i see the Light and i see Forever black green lavender blue and indigo too shades of my gray and shades of surrender red orange yellow green and everything that i have seen and everything that's in between Saturn and me and everything's chill the time that we kill i'll blink and tomorrow it'll be November the planets will spin however they will i don't know if i'm getting better it's all the things we are all the burning stars everyone drowning in their displeasure i tried to love you like i loved the Moon i didn't succeed whatsoever and i thought i was so clever and i thought i was so smart but the retrograde broke my heart so, Saturn and i we run and we hide space contrabass and high tenor singing, Saturn and i separated by the Sky i just close my eyes and we're together (red orange yellow green and everything that i have seen and everything that's in between Saturn and me) (turquoise, ultramarine gold and silver glittering the black and white that's in between Saturn and me)
7.
hope 03:56
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hope's the thing with bones, i've found twist me up in wires cover me in cool clear water electrify me til i see the light hope's a brittle thing, i've learned snap me clean in two cover me in bloodred silk shroud me til sleep takes me over hope is lingering, i know paint me black and blue cover me with your body and chase my doubts away i took my hope and cut it into pieces and put it on a slide and with the light on all that i could see was desperation so i put the microscope aside
8.
i am not afraid 02:28
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the walls are bloodier than i have ever known my friends have fallen; i'm alone they went out like lights, one by one but the night's just begun i am not afraid i am not afraid i am not afraid i'm not down yet i will not listen, though they've said "don't return, there's nothing left− "nothing left to say or do." but i will run until i find you i am not afraid i am not afraid i am not afraid i'm not down yet
9.
you were there 02:00
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i remember your arms, safety wrapped around me i was warm i remember i was waiting for the sunlight through the storm i remember silence, waiting then a song burst brighter than snow you were there when i was low when i was lonely Odin, you've always been with me (i remember your arms, safety wrapped around me i was warm) i am yours now it's all over now i'm never coming down i'm never coming down (i remember your arms, safety wrapped around me i was warm) i'm never coming down i'm never coming down
10.
night verses 02:35
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i'm more afraid than i can say that i'll run out of ideas one day that the songs in my head will pause and my pen will still and i'll sing no more i'm scared of stagnation and staying the same i'm afraid to lose that old creative flame i'm terrified of the odds that i'll lose my creativity to my mental war i'm scared i'll soon regret not writing down the night verses and the shower melodies and the ideas for lyrics that come to me when i'm trying to sleep i'm scared of losing what makes me, me of losing my voice 'cause i'm only a boy with a song on my tongue i'm less than anyone and if i don't sing i won't be loved anymore i'm scared one day my pen will still and i will sing no more i'm more afraid than i can say that i'll run out of ideas one day
11.
Brooklyn 00:29
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i romanticize my Brooklyn morning comes and windows open sunlight comes and life awakens hope is here and life goes on
12.
death is a lady 02:04
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death is a maiden half Her face bone She wears black lipstick She visits alone i sing to Her to those in Her realm i miss my lover i miss my friends i miss my friends all things must end death is a teacher Her classroom includes lessons on all of the things you will lose lessons on patience lessons on time lessons on things i can put into rhyme lessons on hope lessons on fear death is a shadow that ever looms near and i'll be here and i'll be here death is a presence in all of our lives live and live well like tomorrow you'll die greet her like a friend when you enter Helheim death is a lady half rotted half bright
13.
the storm arrives 02:47
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14.
city 03:38
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midnight, i leave my apartment, jacket on and hat on my hair i walk slowly to the park and sit on swings and stop and stare the city is alive all around me the city lights have found me midnight, i leave my apartment, jacket on and hat on my hair i walk slowly to the park and sit on swings and stop and stare the city is alive all around me (and i don't know where i'm going, i don't know what i'm doing) the city lights have found me (but i am home) (but i am home)
15.
notes to self 04:26
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strive to leave each room happier than when you found it if someone says you hurt them, apologize take your makeup off before going to bed if you have the energy, then moisturize tell your therapist the truth when your mind starts to slip take your meds as much as you can use the gel ice packs on your shoulders and hips, ankles and wrists don't fall apart and you'll be a self-made man do all things with as much wisdom as you possess maybe even do all things with care write music for at least half an hour a day sing as much as you dare this song is to remind you you are real in your brightest coldest hour all the things you feel to take up space and be in pain is not a flaw drink some water, eat something, and unclench your jaw your art has merit of its own you're creating something like a home even when you're lonely you are not alone it doesn't matter if nobody knows and you don't need to be your mother's daughter anymore you don't even need to be your father's son all the expectations that they carved into your core all the silent hurts and setting suns all the things the world has done (every little thing) you don't need to run (you only need to sing) even when you're numb (you feel everything) there's beauty in the way you are even when your hands hurt too much to play guitar darling, you're gonna go far you're the magpie flying off into the stars
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Saturn (acoustic) 03:50
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(turquoise, ultramarine gold and silver glittering the black and white that's in between Saturn and me) so, so, Saturn and i we get along fine me and my velvets and him wearing leather Saturn and me were something you'd see when all of my exes were fairweather rings, runes, jewelry ice, fire, mystery of everything that i believe Saturn and me so i wake up in bed with Space in my head i see the Light and i see Forever black green lavender blue and indigo too shades of my gray and shades of surrender red orange yellow green and everything that i have seen and everything that's in between Saturn and me and everything's chill the time that we kill i'll blink and tomorrow it'll be November the planets will spin however they will i don't know if i'm getting better it's all the things we are all the burning stars everyone drowning in their displeasure i tried to love you like i loved the Moon i didn't succeed whatsoever and i thought i was so clever and i thought i was so smart but the retrograde broke my heart so, Saturn and i we run and we hide space contrabass and high tenor singing, Saturn and i separated by the Sky i just close my eyes and we're together (red orange yellow green and everything that i have seen and everything that's in between Saturn and me) (turquoise, ultramarine gold and silver glittering the black and white that's in between Saturn and me)

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this album took the better part of two years to write and produce. several songs were cut from the final version, and the track list got moved around a lot.

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released May 1, 2023

i'd like to credit Marco Mimir Mohan (my cat) and Lucky Loki Mohan (my cat)

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Jai Mohan New York, New York

Jai Mohan is a genre-fluid composer based out of New York. he writes music about queerness, gender, polytheism, disability, big feelings, tiny moments, and the mortifying ordeal of being known.

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